Weed Killer

These last few months have been a rollcoaster of internal and external cleansing. There has recently been an anticipation of something coming, into my life, that is going to be greater than I could ever do on my own. This life purpose is starting to become a reality that is entering into my conscious existence. There was the initial body cleansing that happened with a 21-day fast that I have finished & will soon begin again. There's been the Monday Night Prayer, at our house, that has brought emotional & spiritual cleansing. There were the friends that came over to my house to help organize it & perform a physical cleansing of all the clutter & junk. There was the deep inner healing that happened last Friday night at a nameless, faceless God-centred, Revival meeting in Oak Bay. There was the identification of idolatry toward man & religious institutions on Saturday - this is always a touchy & painful cleanse, whenever our idols are addressed.

Idol worship is identified in the first commandment from our Heavenly Father: "Thou shalt have no other gods (idols) before Me."  What are other gods or idols? Anything or anyone that is not our Creator God. Our jobs, our money, our cars, our houses, our jewelry, our cell phones, our electricity, our computers, our internet, our cameras/pictures, our food, our plumbing, our water, our spouses (yes our husband or wife), our family members, our children, and ourselves. Self-idolatry was involved in the first sin - Adam & Eve wanted to be like God, to know everything, to have power, to be self-sufficient. Idolatry of our family, our spouses, our children - anything & everything & anyone that we have given a higher priority to, in our lives, than the one true God is an IDOL!

We must lay down our idols, take them off the pedastal, and place God in the highest place or He will do it for us. IF we humble ourselves; He will lift us up. When we exalt ourselves or our children or our spouse or our things, we will be humbled. It is hard to read this and hard to type this because it means dying to what "we" want, what "I" want, and choosing to live for what Jesus wants, for us!

Friday night, I was lead, by God's Spirit, to show up to a stranger's home, in search of an encounter, with the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth, through a revival of His people's hearts. The Friday Night Praise & Worship is in a small home in Oak Bay and has been doubling in size every week, for the first few weeks, since it started! The Holy Spirit's presence there is so strong, you can't help put shout out and praise His name! It's like when Jesus rode a colt through Jerusalem on Palm Sunday and everyone was shouting out and the Pharisees told Jesus to tell His people to be quiet. Jesus said that if these people didn't shout out praises to Him, then the rocks would cry out! It was that INTENSE!

After dancing, singing, praising, shouting, and praying, there was a time of repentance. One by one, people just started to repent of broken relationships and going down wrong paths. This reminds me of the verse in the bible that says: "If My people, who are called by My Name, humble themselves and pray and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and forgive them of their sins and I will heal their land." I want our land to be healed, so that we don't experience the earthquakes that have been hitting the lands of so many people around the world such as Haiti, Chile, and Turkey. I want our land to be healed, so that people aren't getting horrible illnesses from our environments. I want our land to be healed, so that it would be safe for our children to walk & run & play in our neighbourhoods. I want our land to be healed so that God will be lifted up in the highest place of honour in our country and that His truth about how we are to live our lives would be honoured.

I am following His lead, in order to honour Him. Two weeks ago, I was lead by God to wrestle with Him. He said to me in a playful tone "Do you want to wrestle with Me, all night, tonight?" Well, how can you refuse such a playful request, when your Father wants to spend quality time with you, having fun! I wanted to wrestle with Him for a blessing, just like Jacob did so long ago. I wanted to wrestle with Him just for the fun of it, like the Father and Son would do before the creation of the world, as shown in the original Hebrew text of the Old Testament! I wanted to hang out with my Daddy all night! He knows me, He knows that I LOVE to have FUN! He made me to be a completely sociable person, outgoing, extroverted, people-loving, fun-loving, fun before tasks, kind of girl!

Say the word "FUN" and I am there; just like a puppy after a toy, that you're teasingly holding in front of it! That's why the daily tasks of being a stay at home mom have sometimes worn me down. I've felt that cleaning, organizing, cooking, staying home and watching the children have held me back from having FUN! However, now I am surrendering to God's weed killer in my life, some things are getting worse right now, but some things are getting better. There is a type of weed killer that you can buy, in the stores, that actually makes the weeds grow faster! This type of weed killer causes the weeds to go throught their life cycle more quickly and then the weeds die! This is what is happening in my life! The weeds of disorganization, uncleanliness, unholiness, unhealthiness, are having God's weed killer poured out on them! I heard on Focus on the Family that messy people have had a trauma in their life that needs to be healed, I felt a deep healing happen on Friday night! So, now I am so excited about seeing the Victory of being an Overcomer everyday being played out in my life, maybe not perfectly but at least I'll be having FUN in the midst of the tasks & purposes that God has for me!